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Blog posts

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31.07.26 I find it so interesting how many people immediately lash out at Emily Wilson's critique of Nolan's The Odyssey. What a bunch of snowflakes. Wilson's critique was valid, tame and even showed appreciation "Perhaps the film will persuade a few college administrators not to cut their literature, language and history departments. Nolan... is doing his best to get the general public reading again, and I am grateful.". People are not used to cricism. Ego are at an all time high and as a society, people are too binary (even for me as an autistic person). People are so quick to jump at Nolan's defence as if they created the movie... you can still appreciate and like a movie for it's cinematography and storytelling. What is art and media if it can not be critiqued? The media and audience reaction have been predicably bland and misogynistic. Branding Wilson as BITTER, SLAM and ATTACK. Just say what you actually think: that you think she is being hysterical (me when a woman isn't fitting in my gendered expectations *gasp*).

Farewell, Pocket Books

"The mass market paperbacks were democratic. They were middle-class and middlebrow, and what's wrong with that, man?" - Stephen King from The New York Times

New music releases

  • I'm late to the Morning Dew (Donk) single but I am ecstatic and excited for the B-Day anniversary album
  • IDK if I like Steve Lacy's new album 'Oh Yeah?'
  • Tyla's new album A-Pop isn't my vibe... she's not helping her rep by working with an AI studio
  • Lizzo's new album Bitch is banger. She is honestly underrated...
  • Drake dropped 3 albums proving quantity over quality. Corny albums, corny artist. Mans 40 still singing about bitches and how they are missing out. Missing out on school. Wrap it up pedo.
10.07.26 I was watching South Park episode 5 Season 19 'Safe Space' and it got me thinking about privilege and ego. This recent week reminded me of the 'political correctness' debate. I mean, who is allowed to be right? Are policing beliefs/ ideas ethnical? We live in an imperfect world, yet we want everyone to be perfect and conform.

The first digital nation

23.06.26 I was watching this video about socialisation and thought "huh, maybe its not me, its other people". And you know what? I also think it's because of the "nonchalant" trend. It's already really bad in Australia because of 'tall poppy syndrome', people here are already scared of being judged and trying hard. Now? That's kind of the norm and it piss me off. More labels to put people down for having fun or a personality like "LARP", "performative" or "acoustic". This is why people suck at socialising, they are scared of judgment so they don't try. Why is it normal to record strangers? It is really dystopian. If a person existence does not cause you harm then just leave them be. I always tell this to children (and they never listen). It's a perpetual cycle of antisocial behaviours.

Fave Tiny Desk performances

Blood Gold in the Brazilian Rain Forest
CommentThe mining industry is the most exploitative industry. I stopped buying crystals in 2022 after learning more about how the mining industry displace people and land. Especially Indigenous communities who are the most disadvantaged. We all know "blood diamond" but it applies to other minerals as well. Congo was trending for a bit for the cobalt mining. I hate learned helplessness "everything is bad so I continue as normal"... well you can stop buying new tech every year, sign petitions and vote for better employment conditions. I guarantee you, your local mining company is just as bad as the ones overseas and it's always the same company.

History nerd ?

What history topics interests me
  • Pol Pot legacy
  • Communism in general
  • WW2 Dictators
  • Chairman Mao propaganda
  • Modern drug trade impact on international economy
  • Religious extremism
  • Displacement of South West Asian and North African people
  • International underground crime organisations
15.4.26 this video is the reason why I share and highlight female protagonists in media. Something that kept with me for a long time is how male audiences are more likely to engage with female artists if she is percieved as attractive. I am a stern believer that media shape perceptions. The way social media branded young men who read feminist literatures as "performative" and shamed men who showed affection as "simps", I think, reflects a deeply prevailing macho sterotype. Anything feminine or feminine-affiliated is looked down upon, and one of the end result is lonely men (who are most likely victims to redpill culture). I even know women who do not like to consume media with female protagonists. We need more positive feminine representation in media.

Youtube docs n reports

When cousins mary WATCHI admire the cultural sensitivity of the docu maker especially for a deeply complicated and nuianced cultural practice and belief.
MUSSOLINI: How Fascists Win & Lose WATCHMakes me think about how nolstalgia is weaponised. As well as the relationship between fascism and false nationalistic nolstalgia
Cabal in Kabul (Cabale à Kaboul)watchZabulon was mean as hell to Isaac. I feel bad for that old man. Interesting doc with a sad ending.
The Children Who Grew Up Under ISIS watchI agree with the village's elder, revenge and anger does not solve the problem. Deeply devastating news report on the people who lived under the Islamic State.
22.3.26 why I don't use grammar checking applications? If you notice my grammar SUCK or I am not being coherent, it's because I am NOT using autocorrect or autogrammar bots. STRAIGHT OFF MY NOGGING ONTO THE HTML FILE BAYYBEE!! If I can't spell something, I will search up the word, and I rely on the 2-3 grammar classes I had to take as an English student. My grammar would still suck because I am still human and English is my second language LOL I don't even read books (ok I do read textbooks and journal articles), I listen to them. I stopped using Grammarly because it is AI and it flag the system for markers as potentially AI. I also notice using Grammarly doesn't make my work better and it's annoying having to declare my use of AI in assesments. So yeah no Grammarly for me ^w^)7

Laundry

Dedicates
  • Spot treat don't need to wash often for certain fabrics
  • Specialty detergent needed (enzyme-free)
  • Water temperature 30°C preferred (lukewarm)
  • Wool conditioner to make fabric soft or hair conditioner
  • Do not wring, squeeze and dry flat
Detergents
  • Don't need a lot
  • If your clothes are stiff, you put too much detergent
  • Fabric softener is useless. Use less detergent
Washing Machine
  • Zip-up and close hook for all clothing
  • Put clothes inside out (decrease pilling)

Quotes that are stuck in my head

  • "Think globally move locally" ~ Black Panther. Related SUBSTACK
  • "I'm a product of our culture too" ~ Pidgin Dolls. Related TikTok or YouTube Short

Scholarly readings

Torrijos-Muelas, M., González-Víllora, S., & Bodoque-Osma, A., R. (2021) The Persistence of Neuromyths in the Educational Settings: A Systematic Review. Frontiers in Psychology. 11:591923. doi: 10.3389/fpsyg.2020.591923

Rosenberg, H., Blondheim, M., & Sabag-Ben Porat, C. (2025). Who in the World Is Generation Z? The Rise of Mobile Natives and Their Socio-Technological Identity. Societies (Basel, Switzerland), 15(11), 314. https://doi.org/10.3390/soc15110314

Big watchlist movies

!!! DISCLAIMER I have not watch any of these fr this is a big complied list of movie recs

The secret Life of Walter Mitty
Millennium Actress
Three Seasons (1999)
Anatomy of a Murder (1959)
Revanche
Elevator to the Gallows (1958)
Dances with Wolves
Hostiles
The Irishman (2019)
y tu mama tambien (mexico)
jojo rabit
Strangers on a Train (1951)
boz salkyn
American Splendor (2003)
salo /120 days of sodom
Gavagai (2018)
Hell or High Water
The Triplets of Belleville (2003)
Portrait of a Lady on Fire (2019)
beautiful boy
Donnie Darko
The pianist
A Brighter Summer Day (1991)
Part Two: Walk with Me a While
I Am Not Your Negro (2016)
Rango
gate
A Prophet (2010)
Dancer in the Dark
Who Framed Roger Rabbit
Cold War (2018)
Rocco and His Brothers (1960)
Memories of Murder (2003)
The White Silk Dress (2006)
good will hunting
the perks of being a wallflower
The Floating Lives (2010)
stalker
The Favourite (2018)
Goodfellas
the wailing (korea)l
Vampire Hunter D
Shoplifters (2018)
Capote
Paterson (2016)
We Were Here (2011)
Sweet Sixteen
The Look of Silence (2015)
Dallas Buyers Club (2013)
Taxi Driver (1976)
Guava Island (2019)
Cat Sick Blues
Good Time
Nostalgia for the Light (2011)
Cinema Paradiso (1988)
the rainmaker
the devil
Touch of Evil
antichrist
the good the Bad the Weird
the Killer
Little Women
the king
Burning (2018)
Persepolis (2007)
Sideways (2004)
Source Code
The Fool (2014)
Traffic (2000)
the audition
The Farwell
Mao's Last Dancer
Dog Day Afternoon (1975)
Winter's Bone (2010)
the Lord of the Rings
Bubba HoTep
Almost Famous (2000)
synchecdoche
Late Spring
Phantom Thread (2017)
Shoah: Four Sisters (2018)
Django Unchained
Days of Being Wild (1990)
Roma (2018)
the Usual Suspects
Mermaid in a manhole (1988)
Paris, Texas (1984)
ThreeColours: Red (1994)
Little big Man
Green Mile (1990)
Suspiria
Fantasia
Ernest & Celestine (2012)
wicked city
Enter the Dragon
freaks
hunt for the wilderpeople
Ida (2014)
Amour (2012)
the Proposition
paths of glory
El Topo
The Act of Killing (2013)
Whisper of the Heart
Throughbreds
a Bread Factory Part One: for the Sake of Gold
Moolaadé (2004)
Uncut Gems (2019)
the Silence of the Lambs
american beauty
Elle
Stories We Tell (2013)
moon
L’Argent (1983)
Forrest Grump (1994)
On the Waterfront (1954)
Silverado
gandahar
atlantics (senegal)
Mr. Turner (2014)
Werckmeister Harmonies (2001)
Elena
onward
trip to the moon
goodnight mommy (germany)
death of stalin
Rififi (1955)
Capturing the Friedmans (2003)
The Class (2008)
Bonnie and Clyde
Pépé le Moko
Dead Man
Beau Travail (2000)
A Prophet (2009)
Patema Inverted
Reservoir Dogs
Gosford Park (2001)
The Gatekeepers (2013)
Altered States (1980)
The Diving Bell and the Butterfly (2007)
Brimstone
Carlos (2010)
Birds of Passage
The Double
Tales from Earthsea
West Side Story
the Dark Valley
Sound of Metal (2020)
Timbuktu (2015)
Tower (2016)
One More Time with Feeling (2016)
good Morning, Vietnam
The Rider (2018)
the Grand Budapest Hotel
Boyhood (2014)
Call Me by Your Name (2017)
big fish
Her (2013)
Before Trilogy
Kill Bill
Force of Evil (1948)
the Magnificent Seven
hunt for the wilderpeople (nz)
45 Years (2015)
12 Angry Men (1957)
Blue Valentine (2014)
house of the devil
Fruitvale Station
The Sting (1973)
loving vincent
belladonna of sadness
Black Friday (2004)
Tekkonkinkreet
Baby Driver (2017)
verigo
Apocalypse Now Redux (2001)
There Will Be Blood (2007)
Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon (2000)
United 93 (2006)
Double Indemnity (1944)
Knives Out
Maverick
The Florida Project (2017)
birdboy
El Dorado
The Fountain (2006)
The Scent of Green Papaya (1993)
the Ladykillers
jersey boys
Gone Baby Gone
Billy Elliot
Deadwood: the Movie
Boys Don't Cry
grave of the fireflies
Leviathan
Yahsi Bati the Ottoman Cowboys
maid in manhattan
Jafar Panahi's Taxi (2015)
35 Shots of Rum (2009)
Yi Yi (2000)
Spotlight (2015)
Westworld
The wonds (rane) (1998)
Let The Right One In
Son of Babylon
Empire of the Sun
Weapons (2025)
Waste Land (2010)
It Was Just An Accident
Bring Her Back
One Battle After Another
Bugonia
Happy Together
Chungking Express
All About My Mother (Todo Sobre Mi Madre)
Sentimental Value
On the Silver Globe
Memoir of a Snail